Please End My Life, Do you wanna live?

Virgin birth of 5 Komodo Dragons

2007-01-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

Total Abstraction from Yahoo News!

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070124/ap_on_sc/britain_virgin_birth

By ROB HARRIS, Associated Press Writer Wed Jan 24, 7:19 AM ET
MANCHESTER, England - A British zoo announced Wednesday the virgin birth of five Komodo dragons, giving scientists new hope for the captive breeding of the endangered species.

In an evolutionary twist, the newborns' eight-year-old mother Flora shocked staff at Chester Zoo in northern England when she became pregnant without ever having a male partner or even being exposed to the opposite sex.

"Flora is oblivious to the excitement she has caused but we are delighted to say she is now a mum and dad," said a delighted Kevin Buley, the zoo's curator of lower vertebrates and invertebrates.

The shells began cracking last week, after an eight-month gestation period, which culminated with the arrival on Tuesday of the fifth black and yellow colored dragon.
The dragons are between 15.5 and 17.5 inches and weigh between 3.5 and 5.3 ounces, said Buley, who leads the zoo's expert care team.

He said the reptiles are in good health and enjoying a diet of crickets and locusts.
Other reptile species reproduce asexually in a process known as parthenogenesis. But Flora's virginal conception, and that of another Komodo dragon earlier this year at the London Zoo, are the first time it has been documented in a Komodo dragon.

The evolutionary breakthrough could have far-reaching consequences for endangered species.
Captive breeding could ensure the survival of the world's largest lizards, with fewer than 4,000 Komodos left in the wild.

Scientists hope the discovery will pave the way to finding other species capable of self fertilization.

While it wasn't unusual for female dragons to lay eggs without mating, scientists understood they were witnessing something important when they realized Flora's eggs had been fertilized.
DNA paternity tests confirmed the lack of male input, although the brood are not exact clones of their mother.

Parthenogenesis — where eggs become embryos without male fertilization — had only been noted once before in a Komodo dragon. Genetic tests showed that Sungai, a resident of London Zoo, was the sole parent to offspring last April.

The day of the crows has come!

2007-01-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

It's has been like 1 month since i put my last entry.

15th January 2007, The goverment is good, in killing crows, BUT you can't kill evil!

I went home, playing an Iron maiden DVD, My dad got out furious from the shower.

" WHAT IS THIS?? THIS IS EVIL! "

Hahaha i broke his heart, well so then i went off to sleep.

I dreamt of A flying slug. And i killed it with salt.
( it didn't look like this)

So i woke up, preparing to go to my grandmother's for dinner.
Not that i missed her, I was broked.

So for those kind souls out there. If you would to make a contribution,
this will finance me to live. I need food.

Here's my paypal account. frog_cat_squall@hotmail.com
For Singaporeans, My bank account
POSB BANK SAVINGS - 137234190

if you do, please email me at the above email and notify me.
I do not wish not to show my gradtitude and appreciation.

Ok so here's how the story goes.

It was 7pm. I walked to my grandmothers on a 20 min journey.
In the middle of the road was a battlefield of the birds.
I love birdwatching, and i seen lots of things.
The worst of all is, CROW CURLING by the government.
Took away my life.

As i walked, i thought about how this world has changed.
The weather is getting colder
The people getting mean and stuff.

So i looked up to the skies.
The government really did a good job i must say,
NO ADULT CROWS!
I was so sad.

And i said to myself, the government is good,
but the day of the crows will come again!

As i walked i just had this surge of emotions.
Then came the drum roll of the song by
the 69 eyes - wrap your trouble in dreams.

A flock of, green baby CROWS flew above from
the back of my head.
I was captivated by that sight.
As they lay to rest on top of the chapel.
I saw about 5 flocks of them, all maturing into adults soon.
Thanks the mating season.
I didn't see any adult crows. But the sight of the young ones
gave me the life that i lack.
It was 712 pm

Pure coincidence? I don't think so

So a message from the great Kemper.

YOU CANNOT KILL EVIL, AND EVIL WILL KILL YOU WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECTED IT!

What tarot are you? I am the tower!

2006-12-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

Thanks to greg

You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin
.
The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed.

What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

13th December 2001. Will always be remembered!

2006-12-15T12:12:00.000+08:00

CHUCK SCHULDINER - 13 MAY 1967 - 13 DEC 2001

Abstract from Jane Schuldiner - Chuck's Mum

www.emptywords.org

Day of RemembranceMessage from Chuck's mom:

Hello friends and fans,I want to say I am grateful to have all the emails and postal mail today acknowledging this anniversary. It is a comfort as always to know you're out there remembering Chuck, especially today.

To the ones who think that it has been a long time since December 13, 2001, not to me it hasn't. I have lost a son before, Chuck's brother, so to think grief will ever end is not an option for me, but through the loss of Frank, I do know that as time passes all things are made more bearable.

You ask what I think, I think my sons are just around the corner, somewhere very near. The memoriam I have for this year was written by a fan and it really touched me deeply. Thank you, Barry.

Sincerely,Jane Schuldiner

Spoken throughout,
Silence drapes a memory
Without touch or sight
Emptiness fills the void
What you cannot see
Hurts so much more
But finally, a reason
To rest and wait
Do not fill this space
With tears, remember
Emptiness is draped
With your memories In human form

Hardly A Day Goes By
Five years… Today, December 13th 2006, on the 5th anniversary of Chuck’s passing, we were thinking of changing our tracks.
No interview, no video, no special, but something completely different, so please turn on your sound and listen while reading the words below.
Do we hear some Voice of the Soul…? Anyway, it’s one of the hidden treasures that we want to share with you (thanks Craig).“I wrote the song about 10 years ago as a tribute to Randy Rhoads from Ozzys band. Chuck recorded it for me one Sunday afternoon. I play all rythm guitars and do all the vocals. Scott Clendenin is playing bass Chris Williams on drums who played with Control Denied for a year or so.

Chris was killed in an auto accident 1 year and 1 day before Chuck passed away.Chuck spent several hours writing and recording the lead solos which I'm sure you will agree are some of the most feelingful notes he ever recorded. He was really proud of how it turned out. This is one of my most valued possessions. I will always remember and appreciate his kindness and professionalism. He will be forever missed.”
[Craig Sease, July 2002]……“With each passing year I find more and more reasons to be proud of this song and the memories I have of the people who made it happen. Chris Williams was one of the best friends I've ever had. There are lots of others who would say the same thing. Soon after meeting Chuck I realized he was someone special too. He loved life, music and good friends.

I guess at the time I didn't even know what a musical legend he was. Thats because he was a down to earth regular guy just like all of us.
Scott and I will always remember the day the four of us spent recording this song and every year gather with family and friends at this time to pay tribute to the lives and music of Chris Williams and Chuck Schuldiner.
I know one day we will meet again. Thank you my Metal Brothers!!!” [Craig Sease, December 2006]

Enjoy again and Happy Holidays. See you next year, EmptyWords’ 9th!EW
p.s: below some “empty words” from the guestbook:Just think about how very different the whole death metal world would have been without Chuck. If Death hadn't existed I wonder would Repulsion have existed? And without Repulsion certainly not Napalm Death or even Carcass, let alone all the US bands like Obituary and Massacre, certainly not Cannibal Corpse, and the Scandinavian bands like Entombed, Carnage and Dismember, and tons of others. And would there have been a Sepultura? And what bands would there have been then without all these great bands that Death in a way helped happen and who in turn helped shape the metal world as we know it today. Who was not influenced by Death or by bands that were not in turn inspired by Death? It's crazy when you think about it. The musical world would definitely not have been the same if Chuck hadn't lived.
Chuck was a real pioneer, and always with a great attitude towards his work and people around him. The musical world owes him. [Alex, November 28th 2006, 06:26:44 AM]

JackassX: Chuck!! I still feel your presence, and i;m sure many others do.
You're the one who thought me how to value life. Long live Death Metal!

Dear Friends, Please Pay Some Attention!

2006-12-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

Events these days bore me the urgency to share this importance to you guys.

Total abstraction from wikipedia: ( Death in Singapore)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_in_Singapore

Deaths in Singapore offset the population increase from live births. In 2005, 16,200 people died of various causes, up from 15,800 the year before. The death rate was 4.3 deaths per 1,000 population. There are strict regulations surrounding death and treatment of the body after death. While cancer is the number one killer in Singapore, SUICIDE is catching up as a significant, non-medical, cause of death, especially among teenagers.

Behold,

Suicide is a main nonmedical cause of death in Singapore. Although attempted suicide is an offence punishable with jail under section 309 of the Penal Code, Singapore still sees many cases of suicide each year. 1,700 people killed themselves between 2000 and 2004, 346 of them in 2003 alone.

For every successful suicide attempt, there were seven unsuccessful attempts.

Suicide is now the one of the top causes of death in Singapore youths in 2001, 5 children younger than 15 took their lives, and 37 people between the age of 15–25 did so.

The coroner's report of a junior college student who killed himself because he believed his penis was too small was reported in international media.
The pressure exerted by parents on their children to produce good academic results has also been a contributing factor in some suicides.

End of the story, for more please click on the link.

JackassX:

Just the other day, some person just commited suicide at yishun mrt, the threat is real.
Do not leave your friends who are depressed or suicidal alone.
If you care, please share.

Yes, Suicide is a good way out, but for those who care, would you want your love ones to disappear suddenly?

But for those who believe suicide is the only way out. By all means, After consulting this site, I wish you success, because if you fail, you will regret it.

If you guys need someone to talk to, Please contact me.
Dr Adeth, Frog_cat_squall@hotmail.com

If you need advice for suicide, Please contact me
Dr Adeth, Frog_cat_squall@hotmail.com

If you do not wish to die, Please leave/live

Why am i doing here?

2006-11-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

One and a half month have passed..

JackassX: Why am i doing here?

She claimed that my heart was dug and kept safe and I was pronouced dead on the
twelveth september. However she left without a word.

If it's true that i'm dead, then i can't feel alive.

I should be dead? Or should i not? Why am i living? Or am i dead?

For God had fooled me time and time again, i found my existance on this planet's a wasteland.

So i talked to Satan.

And he said. "Do you really wanna go to hell"?

It did happened. One afternoon nap i was taking and there i was. Hell...

I made a pact with him. Hence, i grew, I grew stronger.. Each day, each time i receive life n love, my powers grew.

God didn't like that. So he acted, making use of this innocent soul to captivate my relentless soul.

It was no use, i receive greater power instead. So i prayed that God took her away.
End my misery and i don't deserve his blessings. My prayer was answered. Thank God.

Now i'm alive, My life isn't at end yet. Using this powers on others who want to die, to live!

Till the day i die. If i see the 2nd coming of Christ, I will spit in God's face. "Desecrate my soul, O lord".

JackassX: "It's very comforting to know that you're not alone"

29/11/06
-- To you especially, my little angel, "You are not alone"!

Now I Understand

2006-10-11T15:02:00.001+08:00

JackassX: Now i understand why i created this blog in an instinct.

It's to share my views on life with the people who are especially close to the topic of death.

Some, may have avoided the topic on death.

Some, may have been haunted by the death of someone or something

I want to let people understand death and not fear it.

At least if you appreciate death, You will surely appreciate life.

For those who contemplate death, I hope that you have made the right choice if you choose to die.

Is death the only way out for you? Or do you really want to die?

For those who love yourselves so much. Did you ever think of killing yourself?

For those who experience death defying events or situations. Will you still live?

Do not run away from death, you will not live a happy life.

Learn to accept death, not just by ending your life, but the beauty of death itself.

So, you will prepared at the time of your death!

I've escaped death too many times.

Now i want to live,

If you had choose to die

2006-10-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

Suicide! The choice of many who wants to die
JackassX: Another Abstraction

Those experiencing suicidal ideation, or thoughts about fatally harming one's self, may struggle to be heard and understood.

The person feeling suicidal may often be made to feel rejected and guilty by those to whom they have confided their thoughts and feelings.

Suicidal ideation can be described as a result from the experience of emotional pain outweighing the individual's coping strategies and resources for dealing with that pain.

Some would claim that it can arise due to an individual's unwillingness to impose self-discipline and care about others more than him or herself; however, this idea ignores the ever-present emotional agony and feelings of immense hopelessness that many people with suicide ideology feel, and is sometimes used by family or others to instill shame or guilt in a person with suicidal thoughts, (Reference: Suicide note), in order to avoid a suicide.

It may work in some cases, but in others it may only cause a person to continue suffering for the sake of other people, without really addressing their own problems.

Causes

Pain (e.g. physical agony that is not correctable)
Stress (e.g. Grief after a death)
Crime (e.g. escaping judicial punishment)
Mental illness and disability (e.g. depression, bipolar disorder, trauma, and schizophrenia)
Catastrophic Injury (e.g. paralysis, disfigurement, loss of limb)
Substance abuse
Adverse environment (e.g. poverty, homelessness, discrimination, bullying/bullycide)
Financial loss (e.g. gambling addiction, loss of job/assets, stock market crash, debts)
Unresolved sexual issues (e.g. sexual orientation[3], unrequited love, aftermath of a break up)
Copycat (e.g. from films)

Reasons that may not fall under the strict definition of suicide as laid out above:
Religion (e.g. suicide bombings, Heaven's Gate)
Extreme nationalism (e.g. the Kamikaze, Selbstopfer, and Kaiten suicide weapons)

Suicide Methods

Use of firearms.

Asphyxiation methods (including hanging) and toxification (poisoning and overdose)

Lethal Injections

Carbon monoxide poisoning

Blunt force trauma (jumping from a building/bridge or stepping in front of a train for example),

Exsanguination or bloodletting (slitting one's wrist or throat)

Self-immolation, electrocution, car collision and intentional starvation.

In the Warring States Period and the Edo period of Japan, samurai who disgraced their honor chose to end their own lives by harakiri (hara = stomach, kiri = cut) or seppuku, a method in which the samurai takes a sword and slices into his abdomen, causing a fatal injury.

Decapitation

What else can you think of?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide

What if your attempts failed?

A suicidal act that does not end in death is commonly called a "suicide attempt" or a "suicidal gesture." In the technical literature people prefer the use of the neologism parasuicide

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parasuicide

Depressed

Living in overcrowded conditions, in conflict with their families, with disrupted childhoods and history of drinking, criminal behavior and violence.

Individuals under these stresses become anxious and depressed and then, usually in reaction to a single particular crisis, they attempt to harm themselves.

The motivation may be a desire for relief from emotional pain or to communicate feelings, although the motivation will often be complex and confused

So you have lived

JackassX: "Would you wanna try something else to kill yourself completely

or would you cherish this little accident and Live.

The choice is yours.

But no matter what you do, Be sure."

"And the light of a single lamp shall light in it no more", Talon

2006-10-11T13:48:00.000+08:00

"And the light of a single lamp shall light in it no more", Talon.

JackassX: Do you really wanna die?

Kill yourself?

Or would you fight to stay alive?

Are you ready to die?

2006-10-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

Are you ready to die? JackassX: Total Abstraction from an article

Changes During the Dying Process

Change
Manifest by/Signs

Fatigue, weakness
Decreasing function, hygiene
Inability to move around bed
Inability to lift head off pillow

Cutaneous ischemia
Erythema over bony prominences
Skin breakdown, wounds

Decreasing appetite/food intake, wasting
Anorexia
Poor intake
Aspiration, asphyxiation
Weight loss, loss of muscle and fat, notable in temples

Decreasing fluid intake, dehydration
Poor intake
Aspiration
Peripheral edema due to hypoalbuminemia
Dehydration, dry mucous membranes/conjunctiva

Cardiac dysfunction, renal failure
Tachycardia
Hypertension followed by hypotension
Peripheral cooling
Peripheral and central cyanosis (bluing of extremities)
Mottling of the skin (livedo reticularis)
Venous pooling along dependent skin surfaces
Dark urine
Oliguria, anuria

Neurologic dysfunction, including:
Decreasing level of consciousness
Increasing drowsiness
Difficulty awakening
Unresponsive to verbal or tactile stimuli

Decreasing ability to communicate
Difficulty finding words
Monosyllabic words, short sentences
Delayed or inappropriate responses
Verbally unresponsive

Terminal delirium
Early signs of cognitive failure (eg, day-night reversal)
Agitation, restlessness
Purposeless, repetitious movements
Moaning, groaning

Respiratory dysfunction
Change in ventilatory rate -- increasing first, then slowing
Decreasing tidal volume
Abnormal breathing patterns -- apnea, Cheyne-Stokes respirations, agonal breaths

Loss of ability to swallow
Dysphagia
Coughing, choking
Loss of gag reflex
Buildup of oral and tracheal secretions
Gurgling

Loss of sphincter control
Incontinence of urine or bowels
Maceration of skin
Perineal candidiasis

Pain
Facial grimacing
Tension in forehead, between eyebrows

Loss of ability to close eyes
Eyelids not closed
Whites of eyes showing (with or without pupils visible)

Rare, unexpected events:
Bursts of energy just before death occurs, the "golden glow"
Aspiration, asphyxiation

http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/542262_3

Steve Irwin - One month after his death

2006-10-05T10:15:00.000+08:00

Steve Irwin; The ultimate wildlife warrior

http://www.wbz.com/pages/78655.php?contentType=4&contentId=200093

JackassX: An abstract

Video Captures Crocodile Hunter's Final MomentsKG
Boston (AP) --

Steve Irwin pulled a poisonous stingray barb from his chest in his dying moments, his longtime manager said Tuesday, after watching videotape of the attack that killed the popular "Crocodile Hunter."

John Stainton, his manager and close friend. He said he had viewed the videotape showing the TV star pulling the poisonous stingray barb from his chest. "It shows that Steve came over the top of the ray and the tail came up, and spiked him here (in the chest), and he pulled it out, and the next minute he's gone," Stainton told reporters in Cairns, the nearest city to tiny Batt Reef off Australia's far northeast coast where the accident happened.

Stainton said the video was "shocking." "It's a very hard thing to watch, because you are actually witnessing somebody die, and it's terrible," he said.

The tape was not released to the public. Queensland state police took possession of a copy for a coroner's investigation.

Irwin's boundless energy and daredevil antics around deadly beasts made him a household name as the Discovery Channel's "The Crocodile Hunter," with a reported audience of more than 200 million.

Friend and Oscar-winner Russell Crowe said from New York: "He was and remains the ultimate wildlife warrior."

"We'll never replace Steve," said Michael Hornby, head of the Wildlife Warriors, one of the Irwin family's conservation charities. "He was part of the family, like he came out of the television set and into your living room. That's why there's been such an outpouring of emotion here and around the world.

Everybody thought they knew him."

Jackassx: Truly, another hero has perished.

Would you only treasure someone
only when he's dead?

R.I.P

Steve Irwin - 22 February 1962 – 4 September 2006

To live or suffer?

2006-09-29T14:32:00.000+08:00

JackassX: To live or suffer?

Many only realize the joy of living
when they are near death.
Toying with death and tasting it?
Cancer then turning orthodox?

Living only to regret?
Contracting illness and suffered health
Losing your eyes, devouring your heart

Hooking on tubes for the rest of your life?
At that point of time.
All you want is help.

For cure? Or you simply wanna die?
Unfinished Business, you wanna cry
It's not time yet for me to die

No one hears a word you say,
You scream with anguish

What has been days, It seems like years
Do you still wanna live? Or you just wanna die?
The rest don't give a fuck

Medicine turns sour, treatment went bitter
You want to bite off the tube
They tie you up and stuff it back in,
To keep you alive

Your eyes, filled by the crimson sea
Wishing you had died.

Everyone thought you wanted to live,
Though you said you wanna die
But, It's all too late
Now that you can't speak
No one hears you cry!

Agony

Inspired by Death - pull the plug

First post

2006-09-29T12:59:00.000+08:00

I took the train to school,
And damn,

this bhangra smells like coffee.

Natural Phenomenon - Philosophy

2006-09-29T09:26:00.000+08:00

Natural Phenomenon

JackassX:

"I once said, i do not wanna have a blog because i do not want to be like the rest and post daily accounts about my life.

But I didn't have to write about my life.
I could write about life instead.

Death is a topic close to my heart.

I've met not many people agreeing to my views.

I just don't want to be alone."

Inspired by the father - Chuck Schuldiner